Monday, October 24, 2005
hais. days seem to get colder & colder now.hmm; on the phone with him last night. & thanks. im slightly better. haaas. and pls remember, SOME THINGS ARENT MEANT TO BE SERVED AS JOKES SILLY! lucky you im able to accept that "joke". hahahahashmm; im so sorry to you & you. im just scared you know?? i dont want her to breakdown. so i reacted that way that night. im sorry if ive blubbered nonsense then.. sigh. & to you; sorry to keep all those stuffs from you. but whatever ive said. its all true. i see no purpose to lie at this perspective. but its up to you to trust me. yes ive been saying sorry. cause i really really am...i want back my happiness. hais..WHY DID YOU RUIN EVERYTHING?? it would be nice if that incident didnt happen. and if that didn happen; i wont get all this pro now. you know?? sigh;; why?? why now when i really need you?? im always questioning this silly ques you know?? i miss you at times; really... theres still some stuffs i cant forget.. maybe im just getting what i deserve?? haaas. i dont know... i just hope that everything can be turned back to normal. cause im really craving to be like the past....i want my past. i really do......
let's make love, in th closet;
9:49 PM;
